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It's nearly the end of 2008. Time flies very quick without you even realized. The year 2008 had taught me a lot of memorable experiences. Both good and bad and you'll finally learnt to lead this life on your own. No matter what happens, we always have a choice. A choice to improve to be better, to find the desired solution for all your problems, to improve others that they're wrong all this while, to confess before it's too late, to admit before feeling sorry the rest of your life and many others. Well like Chuck from Sum41 once said, and I quote,"I try to be perfect but nothing was worth it," is it necessary to be perfect? Or at least act like one. I just don't feel the need to be perfect because to me being perfect just to impress others won't last long and it's going to be worthless. You do what you heart says and enjoy what you do. That's what really matters. I don't know why I'm being so emotional tonight perhaps, a lot of unwanted happenings happened to me this year. Maybe I wasn't ready for it or maybe I did, it doesn't matter really. Then, you will definitely know which of them is your truly friend. Letting go of the person you once loved and confided is not the most painful thing ever happen, it is therefore when the one you love, love another person that's the most excruciating part of all. They hit where it hurt and they fool you so bad. But that's how you learnt how to succeed in life. You definitely will not repeat the same mistake but you will somehow create new ones so you can screw up things better for others in the future. It's somehting that we called Karma. Finally, you will achieve you triumph over someone who had hurt you so bad or something like that.

I think that happened to me this year and I really am sorry for what happened to him that had changed my entire life. I think it's already too late to turn back time and it's just our circle of life that have been destined for us and we shall not interrupt it or obnoxious things may happen to you. Life is wonderful in any way. Sometime the bad thing can turn th existing into something really good. I turned him down several times though he was deeply into me. It was very mean of me. We moved on. It's not WHAT changed us. It's how we have changed due to this "catastrophic" event. And I wish your happiness with your loved one.

"Forgive and forget is the most noble thing to do amongst humans."

And yes, I miss you. You know I always have, MJJ.

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